More picts from 4th of July

4th of July parade

Though it is abit late, but this are some of the picts from the 4th of july parade that we went in St louis. It so very much less formal than our own national day parade and the paraders interect with the spectators and throws sweets , goodies & evrything else at us. With Elvis singing on the street and harry porter and Dumbledore throwing sweets& Captain Jack Sparrow & his crew firing their cannons, it was fun.

Wheels : Dalam Kenangan (HQ Audio)

This song brought back memories for me. Can't imagine I was so young and carefree. At that point in time I feel that I know everything & I could do anything, And I could conqer the world. No wonder that is a saying of "young & foolish". Now I know how truly big the world is. But I do have good memories that could bring tears to my eyes.

Bette Midler- Wind Beneath My Wings - Lyrics

Spring Flowers

Approaching Summer

Well, now is Intersession( between spring and summer) and I have a statistic class( multiple regression).The best thing about the class is the Professor, who is nice to look at. Though I donot understand what he is teaching, its a bliss to be in class. He is one of he top 5 statistic professor in the US. I believe that he thinks statistic is easy and evryone knows that "mean square residue is just the square of standard deviation" Duh!!. I hope I can thru this class. It seems like we are talking in two different language in class, but I think I just focus on the body language!! he..he..

I'm gonna tell you about my so called job. Actually, the department has some funds so they want to give it to the professors to do their research. So, I attached to this professor, who is not bad looking with baby blue eyes. Actually, I working with him and we are going to make a paper, hopefully to get it publish. SO my job is to read journals, and discuss with him and then write a paper. I think it is very good for me to have the experience of working with a professor and learn how to come up with publishable papers.( with or without the pay).

Another news that I want to tell you girls is not a good one but I hope something good can come from it.
About a month ago,( during the busy period) I had this knee pain and I went to the health centre. After doing the X-ray, they found out that I had the beginning of arthritis. After doing blood test, they diagnosed me with Type II Diabetes! I was shocked as I don't have a history of diabetes( in my family). Maybe for the last 8 months, I've been taking too much soda's, snacks , especially at night, and no time for exercise. We'll, that's the beginning of a series of blood, test, urine test, eye exam & many others. They told me that in order to control a Type II Diabetes, I have too reduce weight. That starts the begining of visits to the Dietician( amidst my busy schedule). At first I was very upset, then I just have to accept it n learn to live with it. I really miss the snacking at night as that's my comfort. The dietician is really helpful. he teach me how to manage my food and I learn how to apportion my food.
We'll, I've manage to loos a few pounds & now I do walks everyday, as I can't do jumping & running due to my knee pain. I have to take the lift to my class as the doctor does'nt want me to take the lift for the time being( It's wierd to take lift here-only for invalid).
I did a reflection on all the things that had happened, & i accept it just as a 'dugaan' for my PhD journey. Pray for me.

Two good news today!!

I went to see my chairperson today and we talk about the performance appraisal ( that I have to sentto Malaysia), out of the blue, he ask me if I want to work during summer. I said yes, at least there will be some extra income and also I will gain benefit from it. The 2nd news is something I could not believe. I did a small paper and I just presented it just now. My professor told me that he showed my paper to his friend and he is interested to develop my paper. I was like..:what". I never thought that anyone would be interested, I spent 2 days(only slept 6 hrs in 2 days) for the paper and it is not really thorough. I'm smiling right now. But back to work now, got a killer exam tomorrow, and 1 and thursday. Besides that I got a paper due on Friday...Allah, give me the strength to carry on.

Alice in Wonderland

The whole family went to see Alice in Wonderland( the musical) at the Children's school. Auni was in the cast and she payed a flower. She has quite a lot of speaking part for a flower.I was so inspired cos here the leading cast of Alice was played by a girls( of course ). The uniqueness is that the cast is not Miss Perfect or anything. They give opportunity for all the students and you don't have to be the preetiest( is there such a word) to be the lead. They also give Auni the chance to act even though she is wearing tudung. You can see that the kids really enjoyed themselves playing the parts.

Adik was so excited and she told us that she wants to Alice next year.

Level headed friends

I'ts been good to have comments from friends, It REALLY help. In this position you tend to loose sight of things that are important. I'm am lucky to have level headed friends who love me. It' slike to have somebody knock you on the head and say : "hello! please focus"

Now I'm feeling better, I've made progress with my the assignments. I will be invisible until Mid May cos now is the time for dateline. I will be racing the clock.
So what I'm saying here is that good friends are like treasure( or bras ) they will always support you.

Interventions

Wish I could bring all my thoughts to perspective again. Though I'm trying to deny the things I 'm feeling right now effect me, but alas , it does. I have not been productive for over a week and that is a LOT. I just pray to Allah to give me the strength to go on.

Tomorrow there will be an event that I will have be face to face with all these interventions.
I hope with the recent birthday, Allah will provide me with the wisdom to overcome this unnecessary intervention. Or I can just follow Azah and put on the "Makcik Kerek" mode.

Well Siti, better get you act together...

Solace in isolation

my mood has been in the pits all week. To top it all up, i received news that apparently somebody is not happy with me and my family. I really thought the issues has been closed a long time ago but it seems that they have been just pretending to be nice in front of me. Well If I don't like a person, my face will automatically reflect it. I just couldn't pretend to be nice and to say something bad outside.

How I miss having intelligent conversation with professional people like my crony and I don't care who reads this.

Maybe I should seek solace in isolation.....